89.99999999 DennyCrane.

I was so good last week, exercised heaps and ate really good, but my weight is still 89.9999999. However the week was DennyCrane extreme and my worklifebalance was thrown out of wack. I really struggled with some serious stress last week and I am wondering if that slowed my metabolism down - as in times of stress you body can release one of two different hormones. Cortisol releases in the body and causes you to retain(gain) weight when stressed.

God where do I start with the DC week? First it was stuff over my decision to take the team to Malaya (restaurant not the country) Another manager caught wind of it and complained to DC. What upset me the most was DC taking unconstructive, unhelpful mean spirited bullshit bitching from an uneducated inexperienced dumbarsed manager(peer)and 1) believing it 2) sharing it with me. Like what my team is not worthy? Do my team get to go on PM junkets, get paid $10-15K a year more like the PM team. My team don't waste their staff expenses budget on dodgy breakfasts and cocktail team building skills, they prefer to have a nice classy meal once a quarter (and they deserve it) - and this mean spirited bitch manager feels like she can disapprove AND DC didnt support me. Thats it. I didn't get support. Regardless of all the shit - he didn't stand up for me. And that is not acceptable to me.


This is so culturally off the mark from our corporate culture its not funny. On top of that we had our co. big anniversary party - we were asked to invite people from the past - the person I nominated HN was left off the list but JO who was only ever employed as a sales support (who rooted one of our married supplier reps *gosh how Bold and the Beautiful is my blog tonigh*) was there. Other things at work are troubling me. The ethics of some and the techniques being deployed by some of the younger female managers, saddens me as a woman, and cheapens the hard work and determination that the rest of us have done. I mean if someone can be promoted into a Mgt position with no uni degree, no decent experience (apart from playing the skinflute at a company conference in 1999)and no technical skill set - its just plain.....dumb. You would think being with the co for a long time she would have taken advantage of the study program to gain a degree to back up what she supposively can do. I really hated work last week.

I knocked back the 130K job at Linfox cause the spec they have is really a 150-175k job and I am not jumping or changing roles to take on someone elses shit. I want someone to appreciate me, my skillset, my resume, my degrees and my talent AND to remunerate me/compensate/reward me.

But another opportunity has come along...I have had 2 interviews for - and if it progresses to the next level I will tell DC & MD. AsiaPac HRM. Package is $125Kinc super, but it involves regular travel to SEAsia and my boss will be based in Japan. So its kinda my dream role (expat based in Asia) whilst still based in Sydney. The role is based in Nthern Sydney so I would have to go over the bridge *screams* but this opportunity /company culture/role is sounding really good.

This week I am off to NZ to do some training over there and catch up with some of the awesome managers in our NZ office. I wish some of them could be replicated in our head office. They are true professionals who can still have fun and be mutually supportive.

Empirebuildingskinfluteplayingdumbarsedbitches shit me...end rant now...

*sighs* I feel betterer now.

Michelle and Romy part 2 - the Evening Event.

The main event for the reunion was a dinner at the Maryborough (or Maryfucker as my friend Esther reminded me) RSL club up in the Heritage room. The organisers did an amazing job getting everything, everyone organised.

The photographer was back and attendees interpretations of smart casual encompassed everything from cameltoe tight jeans and sneakers teamed with a Malibu Tshirt - to brightly coloured bad fabrics (ie show every lump, bump, stretchmark etc) old bridesmaids frocks to thick opaque stockings teamed with strappy open toed silver shoes. Oh and being a country town there were a few 'updos' from the local hairdressers. The menfolk were so not much better - what man over the age of 8 wears a spiderman shirt? seriously - it was probably his only collared shirt. Actually the majority of the men where (expected) shocking. Huge beerguts, bad clothes, bad manners, bogans who looked at least 10 years older than they should. I am so pleased I never ever ever slept with anyone from my school/hometown.

Oh there were also about 6-7 couples who all married each other. I suppose thats what would happen if you stayed behind in that town. 2 or 3 of my classmates are now grandparents (yes at 37). I was super stoked to see some of my friends that I enjoyed hanging out with at school and I got to get up with a speech and apologise to our PE teacher for not really having my periods every week - I just hated PE in the hot QLD sun.

Overall a worthwhile trip - a 30year one though? I doubt it. I had my taste and now I am full.

Michelle and Romy - it was all that and More - AFTERNOON

OMG - my 20 high school reunion was priceless and so worth the trip.


I turned up to the school for a tour and photos on the Sat. afternoon wearing a very bright red outfit (certainly wanted to stand out and boy did I). As I was walking up through the school gates I was blown away by all the old people standing up near the office - they were my school mates.

Now what I don't get - is if you live in the country where there is supposively less stress, better lifestyle etc than the city then why do you all look really old.

Anyways some of my lovely friends turned up too (Rune had also travelled from Syd) and we caught up on the school tour checking out the changes to the buildings etc. By far my favourite trip was to the library for my friends and I spent many a lunch hour in the library courtyard - not that we were studious -there were just so many bogans that wanted to bash up my mates (cause they were big friends of dorothy) so we all hung there.

After the tour I caught up with one of my primary school friends and her kids (and my 2 youngest) and we took the kids to the town pool for a swim and cool off. Then there was Sat NIGHT.....

90.00

so close ...nearly in the 80s...

I had to post this though - its a pic of my journey.

12kg gone...5 more to do by Xmas then - another 10 by easter. I can so do this.

90.40 - getting closer...

Yesterday I finally got my regrowth done and booked in for my next lot of extensions - should only need to replace 50 of them next time as all the bottom ones are doing really well. I really love my hair extensions and wish I had done this much earlier.

Well today when I weighed myself I was 90.40 (and still a bit TTOTM)so I am hoping by Sat to be 89.9999999999 as per my short term goal. Even 90.4 is the lightest I have been since 1995. so its an awesome feeling. Today to celebrate I am wearing the new red dress, with red shoes and awesome red lippy. I feel really good today. Had lots of compliments from coworkers...really is awesome.

My belly is flattening out (still roles when I sit), but its flattening out. My back boosies (backfat roles) are nearly non existant. I have so been checking my butt out in the mirror of late - gotta stop that! Heard back from the recruiter and they want me to meet the client for a 2nd interview, so that is happening next week. Should be interesting.

Tomorrow I fly up to QLD for my Michelle and Romy experience. Rune one of my friends is doing a last minute thing and is now coming so I am really stoked to see him again. Kids are excited to be visting Grandad and looking forward to the plane ride.

Emailed Shannon Noll/John Howard and Channel 7 celebrities today on my "21JOE conquest". Joe is my nephew currently in the ADF and serving in Iraq. He turns 21 soon and I am trying to find as many good natured celebrities as possible in order for them to email him a bday greeting.

Already Shane Webcke from the Brisbane Broncos (Joes fav footy team) emailed him. Joe left me a beautiful voicemail on my mobile (he called me all the way from Iraq to tell me how touched he was by my efforts) - so this has inspired me to start "21Joe". Also trying to track down email addys for The Proclaimers (500 miles is Joes favourite song). If you are reading this and you have celebrity contacts - pretty please guestbook me and let me know if you can help.

91 - but dont fret...

Its TTOTM so I am probably just below 90kg..yes TTOTM..I am riding the crimson wave, the red sails are in the sunset, I am on the rag, the painters are in...yes like millions of women the world around between the ages of 12 -55 (on average) I am menstruating.

Its a natural phenomenon affecting 50% of the population - but its still - ogga boogga taboo - for some merely visiting a place of worship whilst menstruating is a trip straight to hell.

But why is it sooo taboo - why do so many people freak out about it. Why don't we in western culture celebrate this rite of passage rather than treat it as something to hide?

In our family we celebrated my eldest daughters 1st period with a dinner in her honour a bunch of flowers and a trip to the jewellers (once you bleed, its a diamond you need!) and shared the news with our extended family and friends (yes even old Poppy in QLD) - but when my friends daughter got her 1st period, she was horrified when I sent her flowers congratulating her - like what the?

Gosh its a fact of life, just embrace it and live with it. I don't understand or want to entertain the shame - and I wont. Even my work computer is blocking MUM - Museum of Mentruation - "i'm sorry this website is forbidden!! like its some horrific bad evil website.

I remember confused teenage girls suddenly getting their first periods and being overwhelmed and frightened (OMG I AM BLEEDING TO DEATH) because their dumbarsed parents never informed them - or the look of shame and horror when in 1984 I asked my School Mistress at school for a tampon - who promptly told me (yes this was an educated woman!!!) that tampons would break a girls virginity and whilst she was at the school, she would not be encouraging immoral behaviour and if you needed sanitary protection you could take one of her HUGE matress sized no wings, no absorbancy huge sticker thing pad that would make you walk as if you had a carrot up your arse.

WHAT THE?? I was a slut at 14 cause I asked for a tampon - are you serious? But no - this idea is not confined to stupid old spinster teachers in rural QLD in the 1980s...One of my daughters friends 2 years ago in 2004 was shocked that I let her - and taught her how to use tampons at a young age as her mother - had told her the same thing about tampons and virginity.

Girls, women, Mums...wake up - god/buddha/allah/whomever made your body - everything it does is quite normal and natural and should not be shameful.


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90.85

OMG omg omg!! I am like soooo excited...90.85 is the lightest I have been since 1995!!!!

I am like so close to being in the 80s and getting myself a real Tiffany necklace - (don't get me wrong I love my ebay Tiffany, but lets face it, for $69.99 inc postage there is no way its the real McCoy!).

My work motivation is slipping something fierce. I submitted my salary expectation review back 37 days ago and am still waiting for feedback - even a 'its still in progress' would be nice. It seems that other people in my organisation when wanting a pay rise go find employment elsewhere - get a letter of offer and then demand a match. I am going down that pathway too, but, and big but, I am not sure if its for a match. I am being interviewed next Monday for a startup company (downside - instability - no proof of concept, upside - can really establish an awesome culture, do lots of things my way and really really prove how good I am, and it would be super challengeing, with the exact job title I want and $130K - yes $130 - nearly 37% more than what I get now.) Considering the salary expectation I submitted 37 days ago with no feedback to day - was only for 18%, it gets me thinking. Well that and a comment from Mick, who may possibly the most brilliant observation yesterday - hmm 130 ? maybe you are selling yourself short. Good point!.

91 + cms + exercise :0)

91 today - a drop of a kg in a week, but during that time I have

Mon 40min brisk walk and 20min run
Tue 45min brisk walk (lunchhour)
Wed 40min brisk walk and 20min run
Thur 45min brisk walk (lunchhour)
Fri 45min brisk walk (lunchhour)
Sat 40min brisk walk and 20min run
Sun 40min brisk walk and 20min run & 30 min beach walk.

I kept my calorie intake down to 1208 per day average minus the exercise calories, brings me to a net daily intake of 855calories per day.

I have also lost 4cm in the last week alone. Since starting this on May the 1st, I have lost 11kgs, 16cm from my boobs, 9cm from waist, 14cms from my hips and 10 cms from my thigh.

Very excited and hoping to drop another kg by the time I go to the reunion in 11 days time. I want to be in the 80s even if its 89.9999999999 it will still be the 80s.

On track for mini goal of 85kg in 74 days time when i go to Bali.

And this is what I want to be @ Easter 2007

6 months from now I want to be 75 kg. (Today I am 92) Thats a stretch of 17kg. But I can do it. Here is a pic of how I will look



OMG I look hot at 75kg!

85 when I am in Bali

This is what I want to be when I am in Bali in 79sleeps time

108 to 92

OMG how cool is this website?

www.mvm.com



The heaviest i have ever been (sept 2003 postbaby#3) was 108.
On May 1st 2006 I was 102.
On Oct 1st 2006 I was 92.

In 79sleeps I go on my holiday and hope to be 85kg.

BL2

Okay I am able to post now as I was notified I didn't pass the final round. I had made the 1st and 2nd audition rounds for the biggest loser 2. At the 2nd interview they did warn me that I was the lightest person that had seen at the interviews - (how cool is that being the thinnest person in the room) - but they liked what I had to offer. I was sworn to secrecy up till today when the casting agent told me I didn't make it into the house.

At the audition1 I had to lie about my weight as when I registered earlier this year I was 102kg, then at the audition I was 92 - so I said I was 96. *oops* (the next lightest at the audition was 113kg)

Anyways I am actually really really relieved that I didn't make it as

1) I have already started the journey myself (with my beautiful CK friends)

2) the whole giving up my family, friends, and holiday to Bali was really troubling me. (Not to mention no coffee, no sex and certainly no champagne)

3) do I really want that much intrusion into my personal life? Hmmm no.

4) if I was stuck in a house with someone as whingy as Fiona or someone as loud as Wal I think I would go nuts...

But I met some amazing people at the auditions and I hope some of the ones at my 2nd audition made it as they were great. So thats my update...ps the thumb still hurts but its not as bad as yesterday

public holiday clums...

I was out this afternoon for a walk/run on a boarded walkway near my house. Had my ipod on heaps loud and was really powering along until I banged my hand on the wooden railing.

Basically I popped my thumb nail out of the nailbed and ontop of the cuticle - however the left hand side of it and top of it is still attached. I banged it so hard and it bled so much we headed off to go to a medical centre. 4 out of the 5 of them in my local area were shut and the one that was open, the sister looked at it and told me to go to the emergency section at the hospital.

Got xrayed - not broken thank god, and the doctor has decided just to clean it up, and leave the semi attached nail on - till basically it will fall off by itself and a new one will eventually grow. oh also got the obligatory tetnus shot!! Gotta say though I got to the hospital at 3pm and I got seen by a nurse and evaluated at about 3.20 and given painkillers until the Dr saw me at 3.45 and we were out of there by 4pm. NOT BAD for a public holiday public hospital emergency visit !!! THANK YOU HOSPITAL *smooch*

Now I have had children, tattoos, a spleenectomy and number of other hurty things in my lifetime, BUT i can tell you this is by far the hurtiest thing I have ever experienced (AND I have a hugely high pain tolerance). Anyways I just had to share how clumsy I can be sometimes....

How Low can I go???12 weeks till Bali

Ok - major refocus. Its 83 sleeps till my big xmas holiday in Bali (woohoo) and thats just around 12 weeks, so I am ramping it up - and focussing big time - I want to be under 85 by the time my plane lands on the 23rd of December (I am 92) at the moment.

Boosies 111cm
Waist 97cm
Bootie 109cm
Thigh 63.5cm
Calf 44cm
Arm* 38cm

*aka the kathnkim fadoubadahs or tuckshut arms!!

Monday I ran for 20 mins and briskly walked for 45 mins and had a rather clumsy thumb accident!!intake to 1200cal.

Tuesday I briskly walked in my lunch hour for 45 mins and kept my intake to 1000cal.