THE STARK REALITY....
I am fat.
I am overweight.
According to the BMI magical # thingy I am ....39.7 or just 0.3 from morbidly obese.
I am 101.5 kg.
But how did I get here ? (rhetorical question - we will cover this one off another time when I am less fragile I promise)
I am not self loathing - I am just laying the brutal facts on the table. Lovely, beautiful and fabulous friends and loved ones tell me "I love you the way you are"., "you are gorgeous"..and to an extend I do believe them. However - not for the media, not for the public - but for me - I wish to be a little lighter. A little healthier and a little fitter.
My heaviest ever Adult weight was 108.5 - yes off the FM radio dial (a BMI of 42.4).
I have just decided not to take the perceived easy way out - and submit to lapband surgery - even though I found a surgeon willing to do it (Willing able and about to be $9K richer at the end of it!!). My partner doesn't want me undergoing a unneccessary procedure and GA.
He has also acknowledged in the past he may have had some (without malicious intent) some sabotaging behaviours when it came to successful weight loss for me. He aint a freak feeder - thank god - but would regularly reward me with treaties (treaties = icecream, dinosaur lollies...naughitness etc). So almost like fowards backwards land....2 kilos lighter, 1 back on...
So as a result come with me on a journey if you will - I know I am talking it up - as I move forward to remove the physical and emotional load from my frame.
I am overweight.
According to the BMI magical # thingy I am ....39.7 or just 0.3 from morbidly obese.
I am 101.5 kg.
But how did I get here ? (rhetorical question - we will cover this one off another time when I am less fragile I promise)
I am not self loathing - I am just laying the brutal facts on the table. Lovely, beautiful and fabulous friends and loved ones tell me "I love you the way you are"., "you are gorgeous"..and to an extend I do believe them. However - not for the media, not for the public - but for me - I wish to be a little lighter. A little healthier and a little fitter.
My heaviest ever Adult weight was 108.5 - yes off the FM radio dial (a BMI of 42.4).
I have just decided not to take the perceived easy way out - and submit to lapband surgery - even though I found a surgeon willing to do it (Willing able and about to be $9K richer at the end of it!!). My partner doesn't want me undergoing a unneccessary procedure and GA.
He has also acknowledged in the past he may have had some (without malicious intent) some sabotaging behaviours when it came to successful weight loss for me. He aint a freak feeder - thank god - but would regularly reward me with treaties (treaties = icecream, dinosaur lollies...naughitness etc). So almost like fowards backwards land....2 kilos lighter, 1 back on...
So as a result come with me on a journey if you will - I know I am talking it up - as I move forward to remove the physical and emotional load from my frame.
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